Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Archive for the ‘Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes’ Category

So I have this wonderful friend named Caroline (oh, irony) who is currently living in China and who is, for lack of a more modern phrase, my “pen pal” of sorts.
We exchange emails pretty often, and so much of the time, I feel I work out my own heart in our correspondence. She is an [...]

Read Full Post »

There is this path near my college campus that is still my favorite path in the whole world to walk.
Whenever I got close to a person or trusted them or liked them, showing them this path was like lifting up a corner of my heart. It was sacred, intimate, vulnerable. Reject this path and you [...]

Read Full Post »

I wish I had time to do everything. Depending on the stimuli around me and the ideas and memories in front of me, what I want to do and where I want to be changes every moment. It’s not a discontentment with where I am…only a frustration that I physically cannot be everywhere at once, [...]

Read Full Post »

“Change is loss and loss is change.”
Rob taught on this a few weeks ago, and as I was looking through my journal, I came across it again.
I have wrestled a lot with change lately, as anyone who reads this blog can see. I have tortured myself with finding God’s will, all the while not even [...]

Read Full Post »

It seems despite all my efforts and prayers, God has plans for me here. I still don’t know what those are, but masquerading as a sinking, unsettled feeling in my stomach, He gave me an answer.
And the answer was “Stay.”
I didn’t want to hear it. I wanted to ignore it, pass it off as fear, [...]

Read Full Post »

I spend so much time demanding so much of God. In ways, it feels like I give up on living sometimes, and just ask Him to do it all. I use my cluelessness on the matters of life as an excuse, but really, it’s not.
I’d just rather not make mistakes, or screw up, or be [...]

Read Full Post »

Remember those giant flat wheelie-things on the playground that had a bunch of railings on them; one person would start pushing it in circles, then jump on and it would whirl around so fast that by the end of the ride, you felt like your eyeballs were in your toes, and you stumbled dizzily around, [...]

Read Full Post »

My weekend away was better than I could have imagined; a concentrated healing balm that soothed and stretched and opened me up in many directions all at once. I wrote a lot while I was there, and here’s what came out:
***
It feels so strange to be this alone. Turning off my phone, turning off the [...]

Read Full Post »

In reading through the Bible, the willingness to follow is astonishing. Whether it’s an Old Testament prophet following God into the wilderness, or a disciple taking up the yoke of their rabbi, Christianity has always been a faith of, well, faith. It has always been a way of life that reminds us that we are [...]

Read Full Post »

I live close to the most beautiful library. I stopped by after work today to pick up a few books that had been recommended to me. It was a swift trip, lasting only a few minutes, and as I was walking over to check out, I looked up.
Up, up, up my vision went, traveling past [...]

Read Full Post »

Older Posts »