“A Good Work”

I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until [...]

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Thomas Merton is Stalking Me, I Swear

I don’t think anything else I’ve ever read or heard or seen has summed up what I am going through right now better than this prayer, written by Thomas Merton, and know widely as ‘The Merton Prayer’:

MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of [...]

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Everyone Gets Plans…Even Me

“I found myself in the one who made me. The one that knows who I really am. Behind everything I hide, he knows exactly what makes me tick. He knows more about me then I’ll ever think about, he knew me before I had a name. He sees everything… and still has a plan for [...]

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A Prayer on October 24, 2009 at 10:00pm

I use You sometimes, You know. I grab You and shake You in front of me, like a rag doll, just to prove that yeah, I’m that Godly woman that people can admire and love, and somewhere inside, it all feels like a big sham. Because I know that I’m using You and sometimes, I [...]

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“Jesus Wept”

I am not much of a crier.
In fact, I hate crying in front of anyone, and the last time I cried more than a single tear was when I watched “Hotel Rwanda” last winter. The last time I cried (and I mean, cried) about something personal was probably the summer of 2007.
I find this fact [...]

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Tripping Over My Pedestals

I have this naughty tendency towards pedestals. They are pretty and white and shiny (at least the ones in my head are). They stand tall and straight, like sunflowers, and seem harmless. I’m just tipping one little thing on top of it — no need to worry. It’s just one small thing — a habit, [...]

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The House of God, Forever

When I find music I like, I tend to gorge myself on it (much like cookies or a really comfortable new tshirt)– the past two days, it’s been Jon Foreman’s album “Limbs and Branches.” There is this beautiful song he does, patterned after Psalm 23, called “The House of God, Forever” that I kept listening [...]

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Your Love, It’s Inside, It’s In Between

I just found something I wrote a few days ago — a written down prayer in one of my journals (I do that a lot, I process it better). I noticed that it ended with this: “Thank You for never leaving me and loving me outside of all of my silliness.”
The funny thing is that [...]

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Looking Myself Straight in the Eye and Being Honest Is Harder Than I Thought

I’ve been having a rough go of it lately when it comes to how I view myself. Anyone who reads this blog has perhaps seen through my thinly veiled musings about self-esteem and the battle I’ve been fighting lately. The spaces inside my head and my heart are battered and bruised with the sharp punches [...]

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A Quick Lunchtime Blurb

I do not pray for success. I ask for faithfulness. – Mother Teresa

This taste of wisdom from Mother is changing the way I pray. I need faithfulness more than I need air; not faithfulness from God — that is guaranteed. I pray for my own faithfulness to this beautiful, subversive, difficult Kingdom that God is [...]

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